Woke up today at 12:30 PM..finally.. I had so many strange dreams, being at M's musical theater class, canoeing to some random location, being at work and trying to explain to the old man who is oddly familiar that he cannot return his items. I had been woken up by my mom trying to find the straightener in my very messy room. It has now been mostly cleaned just a few small things. But I realized after that the straightener was left by my shoes because I had found it in my bed..woke up again to ask my dad to turn down the noise coming from the videos he was watching online. And so it led me to a 12:30 PM wake-up. I stayed up last night finishing Czas Honoru Sezon 4 and happy I did, it was good! Cannot wait for sezon 5 in September.

My mind has been racing with all the things I need to do and am not doing. And thoughts for what to do the next few months and being upset about not going to Brazil. Feels like my mood is up and down and don't know if I am making the right decisions or not. Trying to look at things positively but sometimes things just get very overwhelming. Trying to figure out what days to start my records and planning. I even thought that tomorrow was April? I don't know how since everything is due in March but still. I have been keeping up with the e-mail readings which are a nice fresh take on everyday. They are a good reminder even when I miss a prayer. It will stop raining.

I forgot to write yesterday that I didn't end up meeting with C because it would have been too late anyway but I did take a wrong turn to the park. I eventually ended up at the park and it was very dark with only 4 cars in the whole lot, one with their lights on. And at first I got out and stretched and felt weird doing all of this then ran for a total of one minute. Until I got creep-ed out and thought that maybe this wasn't the best idea. That is a first for me, but probably a good idea. ;) But I did look at the Toronto skyline and it was real nice and I hadn't been to the park for so long and by water at night for a long time too so it was nice. It was also cold and I was wearing only my sweater that I attempted to run with at first.

Today I also did some dishes again and had some herbata with tata. That Chopin melody was on again, it feels as if I have been hearing it a lot lately. So then we were all classy with our tea and history of Chopin talks and talks about smoking and undeveloped camera film. We'll ignore what I was wearing and just keep the thought of a classy conversation in our minds. I also used the cup & saucer (tasse und undertasse yes yes German!) I got from P and Ciocia B from Poland. :) Little things like that made today nice, then my neighbour got home.

So a very up and down day, a lot of saving money to do still (which is hard but you need to keep reminding yourself) and I can't wait for my mom to come home. :) I also stayed up doing a new board and research. Time to do some work, good bye!

Evening Update: I am back and would like to mention that I e-mailed two people that might make this panicking go away a little. :) Have calmed myself down a little. I also received a lovely message from A in Maryland and it just made me smile, what a great friend. And her family is so nice and adorable as well I went to see them all again. Things are going to be ok.

 

Today I woke up later than I promised myself. I took the bus up North which I never do and had my meet and greet. It went well and I am transferring to another location which will be so much easier to commute to. And I won't have to use 2 city transits. Yes, there are locations closer however I don't really like them. And this isn't forever. So in 2 weeks goodbye old place, hello new! It was easy and I don't know why I waited so long. And the people so far seem really nice. 

I was supposed to meet with C tonight but I had my zumba class, which I prolonged for too long and I promised I'd keep it up. So didn't end up going downtown and drove to class all ready only to arrive to closed doors. It turns out that because of the number of people they have to cut down the class to let everyone fit. Last class it was pretty crowded, do the first 20 people who arrive are let in and then the doors are closed. :/ It was very unfortunate, and I cannot make it to the Saturday classes. So coming extra early next time! But maybe it's good because I did have a few things to do and finished them tonight. Environmental design all day tomorrow.

Need to get started on my license, passport and other important things as soon as possible. I should fold this laundry sitting here all day but can't get around to it. After the meet and greet walked around some stores in the area. CB always has the best music and they had $4.99 flats! But nothing really grabbed my attention. There was one dress at W that I kept trying it on but the first time there was a tear in the back, the second too baggy and the third a button fell off, so I took it as a sign to let it go. It was also pink which is something that I haven't seen in my closet for years. There was also a coral chiffon shirt that fit nice but I let it go as well. Just have to keep reminding myself. I went to JF as well and tried on a few things, there were blue shorts for $5 but they were just strangely put together. Time to catch a movie perhaps, I have missed out on Czas Honoru last week, then sleep and wake up to lot's of work tomorrow. And have touched up my blog a bit with one of my favourite colours, kept the same layout.

A few snapshots from my phone of the past few weeks/months.

001. Mercer Union: Pin-up Show: I love wrestling posters.

002. A thank you letter I received from a friend on a gloomy day.

003. Mercer Union: Pin-up Show: My work up on display.

004. At the laundromat studying German on my walkman.

005. Playing a crazy rabbit game at a friend's.

006. Playing game in Kitchener, crazy snow storm driving back.

007. The lovely table set-up for or Christmas get together with friends.

008. The gingerbread how my friend made.

009. I came downstairs to find my cat in the sink.

010. She's the weirdest cat we've ever had.

011. Proud of my burnt bacon strips.

012. Amazing sandwich.

013. The shoes I found again at Zellers after losing my others in the Atlantic Ocean.

014. Some leftover Chinese food and movies in bed.

015. Chocolate dipped Strawberries & warm cookies made by my sister. Nice surprise.

016. I told my sister to sit in that tub because it felt like it would fit her.

Today was a lazy day, again. I woke up and was on Skype. My Skype wasn't working at first and had to re-download it. I then organized the laundry with tata and we went to the laundromat. There was the Polish owner there and then another lady arrived with her son. Monday's are quiet and perfect for laundry. I ended up helping the lady out and we started talking about things. She also packed 7 peanut butter sandwiches for her son and he called me a sweetheart, he was 5. Tried to also practice some German but once we started talking it was hard to get back into it.

I then came home and the laziness began, I almost forgot I had my interview tomorrow till tonight. I also watched The Diving Bell & the Butterfly. Wasn't really aware what this movie was about or that it was in French. I had just seen screenshots and it seemed like a popular film. So put it on hold in the library and enjoyed it. The opening credits, the x-rays, the music. It is a sad film, and very powerful in it's message. It is in a sense a slow film as well, but it was the perfect speed. To walk through each frame at this pace made it feel more realistic. I would like to read the book as well. I enjoyed the scenes of concrete, water, wind, windows, etc. I also enjoyed that there was a scene in Lourdes when I was just researching up again and editing photos of my trip to Lourdes. It was nice to see the streets again.

Tomorrow I have two evening events and have to cancel one, unfortunately I think I know which one and I really do not want to. I wish I lived downtown, things would be so much more convenient. Today we were in the kitchen (tata and J) and we started singing old childhood Polish songs, one song we couldn't figure out the tune. It was a long time since I had sung those songs, surprised the words were even remembered.

I realize I also won't be able to make it to Brazil this year. I have a lot to do this next few weeks as well. Invitations, decorations, environmental posters, environmental flyers, W intern poster (by Wed), W binaries poster (by Wed), Guatemala layout, more business cards (?), contract, passport, license, etc.

Today woke up tired but to blue skies! It was a nice feeling, it wasn't as chilly as yesterday. We went to mass in the morning and dropped off J at work. Then came home and tidied up my room a bit. I then helped my mom make two different kinds of chicken, a spinach salad and some spicy rice. It was such a good meal, and Sunday Afternoon cooking with my mom is the best. Then dropped off J at Starbucks and picked some up myself. Then watched some Ellen episodes and other random humorous Youtube videos with my mom. Right now just watching clips of the Oscars. A very casual day, didn't do anything special but it was nice. Had an urge to bike as well. While we were driving towards church we saw a man and his daughter biking and people walking their dogs and we all had this happy feeling. ;)

Tomorrow I have a Skype interview in the morning. I also have to get started on my three weeks of laundry. This week will be filled with sustainable energy design work. I also am re-designing my blog layout. Tried to do some coding today and got confused. I should also look into getting my passport as well. I'll be going to an art battle this week to support a friend. And hopefully seeing another friend who I haven't seen since September! Back to zumba as well on Tuesday. Some work as well towards the end of the week. Hoping it'll be a nice week!

Military Green Shirt $9.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Military Green Shirt $9.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Military Green Shirt $9.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Grey work-out vest/hoodie $6.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Grey work-out vest/hoodie $6.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Grey work-out vest/hoodie $6.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Parachute Rain Jacket $9.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Parachute Rain Jacket $9.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Parachute Rain Jacket $9.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Track Pants $9.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Track Pants $9.94 (CDN) Joe Fresh

Yesterday was an up and down day. It started off good, then by the afternoon it turned sour and then by evening it was back to being good! I made pancakes and got food poisoning the day before as well? I just don't think my stomach can handle fried, oily flour food. The same thing happened with placzki ziemniaczane (potato pancakes). It's just too much and too heavy. :/ A shame with pancakes. Perhaps I ate them too fast or they weren't cooked entirely because I am seriously the worst pancake maker in the world! They never turn out. 


The weather today is so lovely, light white clouds, blue skies, birds singing, sunshine, it's as if it's a Disney movie I am describing. I'm kind of excited to run actually, but have some things to get done so might have to leave it for the evening and steal my brother's sweater again. It's just so nice and comfortable. I told him GT had the best clothes!


I have a strange obsession with instagram. It's been a fad now for some time but I really enjoy looking through people's instagram photos. The quality isn't the best but these little snapshots of funny or happy things in someone's day is nice to see. Even the editing is nice as well. I think I spelt instagram wrong. Nope it's right, I like the collages with rounded corners people create, it reminds me of the old photography I used to do. Speaking of photography I am seriously slacking with photos! I have not had a day out taking photos since Spain I think! I have no motivation and always complain my camera is too heavy. ;) Did bring out for one walk with C on Queen Street but ech. 

This weather though makes you happy! It's still chilly, you need a light coat but it makes it feel like spring is coming. I really am excited this year for spring. And Easter, one of my favourite holiday's. I think Christmas wins first place though. But Easter is a close second! And I was a bit nervous this year that it might be as busy as last year (which is when I had thesis due) but it seems to be a bit more relaxing this year! I want to get our my red headscarf and wear that too.

I met up this morning with M. She is back for reading week and we finally got some time to meet up quickly. So we of course choose Joe Fresh. And I know I promised I wouldn't buy any new clothes, and was doing so good on my own (never shop with anyone haha). But Joe Fresh, had a clearance sale. Of course out of all the days we decide to go, and it was huge! And we went to 2 Joe Fresh locations. And had like 15 items in my hand and wouldn't let the lady who was waiting get into the fitting room. And the guy's section had big sweaters. But I did very well and only bought 2 things in the first store and 3 in the other and used up the gift card M got me for me. The pictures are displayed above.


I was very happy to find this green light shirt. You can wear it buttoned up and tucked in or with leggings. Or where it unbuttoned with a tanktop underneath or a brown braided belt? It's nice and light and longer than the other cargo tunic I have. The vest was $6.94! I was like yes! It's nice to have a vest to wear around the house, we used to wear vests a lot when we were little. But then stopped for awhile and a few weeks ago my mom was wearing one around and I really wanted one. It's also great to wear over my shirt when I'm off to workout or in the summer when running in the morning and it's a bit chilly.


The parachute jacket, perfect for the rain! I have wanted a rain jacket since kindergarten when I borrowed my neighbour's rain coat, for a Singin' in the Rain performance. When I was in Spain for World Youth Day I also had bought a crazy leopard print poncho. It was huge and ridicolous but it helped me stay dry and my bag! And pielgrzymka also just wore ponchos. So for $9.94 it seemed like a good idea. And I actually prefer that it is short sleeved. And it has the perfect sized hood and it is a but strange shaped but I like it. And it reminds me of Sweden.


And last I bought running pants! I cannot for the life of me find my other sweat pants. No idea where they went and I never have comfy pants, maybe that's a good thing. But these are great, the fit the style, I want to run in circles in them! With my vest! :) Yay fitness!


I was happy I got my camera out today and documented these, at least it was some sort of photography. And since the sun is out the lighting was great. Yesterday we had a W meeting. And it went very nice, we talked a lot about everything and the meeting lasted 2 hrs and 30 min! I felt very productive and I think everyone did as well. And A and her mum were kind enough to drive me home again. I am making them millions of cupcakes! They are both so nice.


Yesterday evening tata and I had a nice 40 minute talk about his University and family and such, it was really nice, just at the kitchen table. Speaking of kitchens ours is getting renovated, like J's across the street last week! Kind of excited, not sure when. I received a lovely message from P yesterday. Need to translate a song for her also into Polish. I also saw Ciocia H on our Polish TV station which was very exciting and nice! And she also sent a message and it made me happy, too. A great end to a gloomy afternoon. :) I miss everyone in Poland. And Ciocia R, she also talked to mama and sent me a nice message. I am very fortunate to have a lovely family.


A friend on Pinterest posted a link about this amazing looking Pharmacy and then it relinked to another pharmacy which looked similar to one I saw in Spain. This Farmacia la Puebla 15 in Palencia instead. I google mapped in and it's not the same street or anything (actually I don't even think we were in Palencia, I thought we might have because it was near Burgos) but looking on google maps of the area is so nice to see again! The streets, the green pharmacy signs, the small streets, etc. :) Which reminds me to get on to editing all the photos from my trip still. :/


I love the new format to upload blogger photos. I have waited for so long it seems for an easier way to upload a batch of photos, instead of each individually so it is nice to now finally have that option. And the youtube uploading video option as well! I have been thinking of changing my blog layout around. I want some pink and include more photos more. Less writing, I always write too much. Have also been thinking again of creating a zine. This weekend work and work. Yay money. Excited for zumba next week. Not sure if I am meeting with I and her family, no message yet. P has not replied back about gallery hopping today, it would have been a perfect day for it too, and I think one gallery was having a launch party also. 


My lenten promise this year is going to need a lot of patience, no freaking out and time. I already didn't fulfill it to the fullest yesterday and of course got distracted by the computer. But today I will put more effort into it. Feeling so motivated now to do everything. Maybe I'll try German lessons tonight too! I practiced a few days ok through the CD. I even tried to do the French, Italian and Spanish quizzes again. Never tried the Italian before and I actually didn't mind it. I never really thought of learning Italian but maybe? I want to so badly scan all the film tata has, but our film scanner will no longer connect to the upgraded system. :/ It's a shame there has to be some kind of driver to download somewhere?


I listened to a lot of merengue music yesterday while designing. I didn't take a nap like a few days ago on Monday. Good, this structured early morning wake-ups is continuing for the next few days. And it was so nice to wake up Monday morning and go for that run. Monday run & push-ups & sit-ups, Tuesday zumba, Wednesday small walk and today run again with sit-ups and push-ups. Tomorrow is going to prove to be a bit more difficult to work-out if plans change. And Saturday for sure nothing. But back to Sunday. Oh wow I just checked the weather and it says powerful storms to hit Ontario and snow?! Haha actually:  Ontario-biggest snowfall yet! For tomorrow morning. It's going to be a busy ski weekend up North for sure. 


Off to design a poster due for tomorrow. It's pretty much complete we just reviewed it briefly yesterday and need to do some final touch-ups. :) I guess I need to take in this nice weather we are having today, too.

It's been a bit since I have written. I have been writing but more personally. I woke up this morning to watch Czas Honoru at 6:50 AM and then went back to sleep, maybe I should have tried to stay up. It wasn't the most exciting episode but still good. It's been a bus few weeks and they are just going to get busier. I have been good with getting things done beforehand.

Today went to pick up J from the gym. Before that I went to get my new glasses, they might be ready this week even! Good thing I came back a second time. I didn't end up getting the black frames, I tried for the tortoise shell style for something a bit different. They aren't too drastic and look much softer, according to the optometrist. And it turns out that my eye appointment is this May! It's been 2 years already. We then went to get some body products, put down the Tar Deco Essie nail polish, headphones and bus tickets. I didn't end up going to buy that shirt, it's in the back of my mind, but I have been doing so good not buying any clothes so far.

There are hopeful thoughts for the next few months, lot's of change. Today I am not going to the book workshop but to zumba finally instead. I'm a bit nervous, because I always am for something new, but I think it'll be fun. Must print out the voucher actually.

Went out for a run randomly yesterday on Family Day. I woke up after 9:30 AM and went out for a jog in the park, in M's sweater, which is an amazing sweater. Still cannot find mine. :/ A lot of missing clothes. Anyways, the weather was so nice, sunny all day. Let the fitness begin? Or am I just going bacj to my old lazy routine again.

I have been keeping up with my skin routine. My face has been a bit better, I personally think. My chin is better, there are still marks on my chin and cheeks but it's different than before. But it's only been a month and I cheat a little sometimes.

Evening update: I have just come back from my zumba class. Overall yes I was sweaty, but not as much as I thought I would be. Usually I leave a trail behind me on my way to the car. ;) I think one time J and I had to put towels on our seats because we didn't have clothes to change into. Enough details. Overall, it was alright. I was expecting more I think and there were at least 20 people in the small room. The instructor sometimes forgot the dance moves and others had to remind her. The music was so so, a lot of older things that you would hear on the radio to much and not like anymore. Like Jai Ho or Waka Waka. I don't mind Waka Waka actually. I guess I was comparing it to the amazing class I took in Washington, it was an intermediate course which we were not expecting but we made it through and it was a lot of fun and energy. Our instructor was an amazing dancer as well. We'll see how the rest of the classes go, I'm glad I signed up and am doing something again. It will get busy the next few weeks but it'll be a nice break from the computer for sure. :) And now I drink lot's of water.

Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday, I think we might now be going to mass early I also have my meeting in the evening. Today was Pancake and I didn't make a single pancake. I did make an amazing sandwich, carrot sticks and kabanosy for J thought. And yesterday a purple heart cake.

I have grown accustomed to my glasses. I don't realize much that they are the ones I don't like. Since when I bought them in the summer going into grade 9 (making them almost 10 years old) my mom insisted I get this frame since it would match my uniform...or maybe I'm just too lazy to look for my prescription to get new ones.

It snowed yesterday afternoon/evening and it was beautiful! Yes, it's annoying to wear big sweaters, scarves and coats on the bus or inside a store and constantly getting headaches and sweating because of it but snow! It makes everything so calm (I wrote clam) and nice. Especially at night!

I was exhausted after yesterday! Have not been that tired in a long time! I was supposed to call M about her business cards and just fell asleep. :/ My sleeping pattern has been random. But yesterday I woke up around 6:30 AM to catch my bus a bit after 7 AM.

I'd like to write about Kate Middleton today. I was never a fan or anything of the Royal Family. A lot of people went to watch the Royal Wedding at the Royal York Hotel and such. But it came and I browsed some photos but never really looked at anything else. She began to show up in a lot of magazines and online. And I am happy that she is the Duchess of Cambridge. I feel like maybe after sitting on the bus and watching people outside and inside running around with white pants with hot pink writing and ugg boots that I would never see another classy person again. Let's ignore right now what I am wearing today. But I'm happy that she is a sophisticated, appropriate, always smiling, classy lady. Minus the one time she wore Uggs. I just found there is a website called What Kate Wore! She always looks presentable. And wears outfits more than once! Our 2012 Princess Diana.

I love this yellow summer dress! And with the beige heels!


The Sailor Dress (not Sailor Moon)


Casual

That was very random, moving along. So I finally got a shift at work! 9-2 PM. Even a little shift these days is better than nothing. Yay for getting paid. After work I quickly discussed with one of my managers about transferring to another store. It just makes sense, I'm tired of commuting for a part-time job for so long and having to pay two separate transit tickets. I don't want to leave sometimes because once you get used to something it's hard to leave those people. The customers/area I want to leave is another thing. We'll see how it goes!

Then I had to walk quickly to UofT, it takes around 45 minutes. I was a bit late since I got out and talked and also took a wrong turn. But people still came in after me. We had a busy filled schedule and then left and caught the subway to mall. I took an "express bus" but it felt as if I waited forever and it took so long. Half the time I was on the bus I didn't know where I was. When I got off it had started snowing!! :) So the plan was to walk through the mall and go straight to the library. Hah. Hahaha. What a plan. I ended up being inside Zellers and from 423 metres away saw the shoe aisle. So I thought I'd take a peak. Zellers always has nice shoes. And to my surprise there was a sale rack in the back and...my shoes!! You do not understand the excitement. These are the shoes which I bought last year around spring. I debated a long time that day at Zellers trying to decide whether to buy another pair of ballet flats. Good thing I didn't.

Anyways, they were on clearance/sale then. And these ones yesterday were $15 as well! I didn't even think, ok yes I did, because I almost bought 2 pairs. But was very happy with the purchase. The reason why I am so happy, these shoes fit just right and were the perfect spring/summer shoes that match everything. Casual and comfortable but still stylish. They are boy shoes. I brought them with me to Europe. One day we went to this wonderful place in Portugal called Nazare. This was a dream city it was so nice and the water was perfect, the weather, etc. Just type Nazare into Google.

We went down to the beach with huge waves. I was taking a photo for 2 friends and my shoes were off obviously because it was a beach. I set my shoes far away from the shore. And counted 1, 2 AHHHHH and suddenlu my friends are stuck in this smiling photo position while watching me run around the water with one camera in their hand and one shoe. A huge wave came at that moment and swept my shoes away, I caught one and the other one I just watched get lost in the waves. The insole only washed up. We ended up going back to the back of the beach where all the little beach shops were set up. I threw away my one shoe and had to repeat the story to shop owners. The flip-flops everywhere were around 15 euros and I had shoes back at the place we were staying at anyway so didn't bother. I got to the bus and the bus driver told me to put on shoes I told him the story again and he just laughed. They were awesome shoes, and it was an awesome day. But not they are found and they are staying on my feet!

The white shoes at the bottom. The shoes at the top are N's and the funny thing is she also lost her shoes in Spain. And what is even funnier is that we both lost our retainers as well. ;)

After Zellers I browsed some stores. UB and Sirens and Zara. UB had a huge sale but didn't see anything special. Until I got to the non-sale side and a lot of chiffon shirts. I went to the fitting room twice and there was one top for around $12 but it had a hole at the bottom, very thin, fragile material and white. It had a bow at the front. But I didn't bother and left it. Then found another chiffon tank in orange, green & white. The white looked nice, I tried something different with the green but ech. It seemed like a great fancy shirt ($15) to tuck in to a skirt or high waisted pants. Put it down as well. Walked over to Sirens 3142 chiffon shirts and blazers. Tried on one sleeveless black & green button up shirt. It looked a bit strange at the top. Wouldn't know what to wear under anyway. Then a military button up black and white stripped chiffon shirt but the back was cut. I pictured a lot of cute outfits in it for the summer. But the slit in the back bugged me. Tried on a beige and black silk blazer, but the material was thin and cheap and for $28 not worth it. I also tried on a big billowy bow shirt on sale for $11 but too big and billowy. And so I put everything away and walked out of each store with nothing. Yay!

I ended up really hungry and bought some Bourbon Chicken. :) Noodles are not the same anymore though hmm. Then met up with K to watch Mission Impossible. It turns out it was the wrong theatre so we went to the other one. The movie was not bad. I was expecting worse.

Also was on the search for sandals. There has been a lot at Ardene's and Zellers. But nothing really that caught my eye. Well some did but I know they will make my foot look too big. The gladiator shoes I had in Spain were used up so much from walking everywhere I threw them out there. They were from Forever 21. But I'm think perhaps to invest into some that are not made out of cheap material. :/

This summer I have to do a biking trip of 230 KM in one day. So far the place we want to bike to I looked up and it comes to only 206 km, which is around 11 hrs. We are going here because M knows a friend who lives there. We are going to do it this summer, practice biking with M & J. :) I'm excited.

I should be doing work right now. Many things to do. Valentine's Day Party next week as well as lot's of design I should not put off to the last minute. Dates are beginning to creep up on me. This year is going a lot faster than expected. Better get things done early than worry about it all. Did a lot of design work this week. I just finished making some chili with mama right now. I don't like chili but it's better to learn everything, you never know when you'll need to know something and you also pick up little things that will come useful in other recipes.

Tonight Czas Honoru with Wujek B and tomorrow mass and movies with M. Also got access to Netflix, thanks K! So going to try it out. :) Super excited! And no one told me Ricky Martin was on the last episode of Glee?! Ahaha amazing.

There are also a few shows I want to watch as well. The Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother, Community, Its Always Sunny in Philadelphia, Parks & Recreation, Mad Men, Modern Family.

Continue Pan Am, 30 Rock, Arrested Development, Murdoch Mysteries, Columbo, Skins UK, The Office (UK & US), Flight of the Conchords.

I felt as if I hadn't written anything for a long time, and then I realized I did on Monday. Yesterday, I took 2 GO buses to Markham. I have only taken the GO bus once or twice before so of course it was a rather exciting experience. I get excited over public transportation. I had my interview and it went well, I hope. Next week a second interview and we'll see where we go from there. I didn't realize that the age limit was 25? I must read instructions poorly or something, how did I manage to skim through that. Then I took another bus downtown and worked on a lot of design work in the library with a nice view of the CN Tower.

Have been debating whether to grab that voucher and get a hair cut now. I want it short again and I know if I cut it I'll want long hair again. I'm real close to finishing Franny & Zooey and moving on to something new. Unfortunately, I was not a fan of the book, there is still a few pages so maybe it'll take a spin. But no, every time I read a J.D. Salinger book the characters get so annoying and I don't want to read about them anymore. Have been good and for two months have not purchased any new clothes. I went around some stores last week and browsed but nothing really caught my eye, that I had (which just means want) to have. And I just keep looking back to the photos of my parents and there 70s/80s outfits and love the simplicity. And my mom is always surprised when we say we love her outfits. Because she says she just worked with what she had.

Not that I am dismissing dressing up or anything any more. And no doubt will cave one day and want to buy everything at Primark if I go to the UK. But I think I have come to that point where I think it's silly to always wanting a new outfit. I have so much already, which compared to others is nothing, and I just need to be creative and work with what I have. I have clothes that I have yet to wear and jewelry. The only thing I am focused on getting now is new white shoes (they were 3 for $10 at Ardene's why didn't I get some?!) and white converse (low-tops). I think about also moving, what would I leave behind. Why do I have so many DVD's and books? It feels like when I look through European apartment photos everything is very minimal. A couple of shoes on the side and a shelf with 3 books. 3 bags..And I need to stop buying things because there is a trend. Like the geometric scarf I wore like 3 times..but it's from Spain so I love it and it's from Bershka. I just put it on now, even though if I go outside with it I'll be freezing.

I also need to get glasses! Have been debating where to get them. I found the perfect, identical frames at Wal-mart. For around $130. But then thought with the free shipping on Clearly Contacts this month why not try a third time with them? I had bad results with the other two...but I think since I really liked the Wal-mart pair and cannot believe I actually found a pair I like will get them there. And I need a suitcase..how did I go this long without one, just borrowing my mom's all the time and breaking them. Called the printers today everything sorted out! Had a different enviro meeting yesterday, there was free food. Ok time to get some work done!

He’ll Get You Back on Track

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE
"Show me Your ways, O LORD; teach me Your paths”(Psalm 25:4, NKJV)

TODAY’S WORD
from Joel and Victoria

Like most cars today, I have a navigation system. I can program it to take me to a certain location. All along the way, the announcer will give me instructions, “Turn left in a quarter of a mile. Take this freeway three miles. Exit in one mile.” But sometimes I don’t follow the directions. I may miss a turn, stop to get gas or go another way. The announcer doesn’t come on and start yelling at me and say, “What in the world are you doing? I told you to turn left! You ruined my plan.” No, the moment I get off course that GPS system immediately starts recalculating another plan. Within a few seconds, it will give me new directions.

It’s the same way with God. When you have a heart to please Him, you may miss an exit, you may make a wrong turn, but God has already recalculated another route. He’s still going to get you to where you’re supposed to be. He loves you with an everlasting love, and when you seek Him with your whole heart, no matter where you are in life, He’ll get you back on track!A

PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father God, show me Your path, teach me Your ways. My heart’s deepest desire is to know You and to be known by You. You are my King, and I humbly submit my ways to You. Thank You for Your goodness and faithfulness in my life in Jesus’ name. Amen.

— Joel & Victoria Osteen


My mom sent this today and at first I was reluctant to read through it and thought I'd save it for later. Because of course I have 23224 things to do. But then I knew in the back of my mind that I wouldn't, it would sit in my inbox for months and I'd end up throwing it in the trash. But I thought differently and read the message. And it was good that I did. It was a good comparison with real life and what I am going through right now. And what some friends & family are going through right now as well.

I believe my mom went to see Joel Osteen with a family friend a year or two ago. He was having an event on the border or something, I don't quite remember anymore. But she did mentioned she enjoyed it. He is an Evangelical Charismatic. I don't know much about the religion but I do know that what I read I understood and could relate to. I enjoy reading quotes, messages, books from other religions. It's a different perspective, a different way of seeing at a situation we all might be going through. Some I may agree with some I may not, but it's good to not be centered in one mind set and not be accepting of others. We all have something to share, even if it may be different.

Now I am trying to remember what the gospel was 24 hours ago and I can't. :/ I become sidetracked and start thinking about other things during mass. While I should be paying attention, listening, talking instead. I'm going to try harder for next time. I'm also trying to not get mad so easily, but that proved hard today to keep my patience and I snapped. And also with my neighbor I am on a constant edge of flipping out. And last week it was every single day! I can't control it, it's the only thing that drives me crazy.

My mind is a zoo right now. So many things happening, I had two shifts at work but had to call in because they were during times I wasn't available. :/ But something is changing. I am still looking and waiting for a place closer to home. Commuting takes long, for a part-time job it's not worth it.

Did some laundry this morning, because it was time. If you are wearing your bathing suit bottom as underwear, it is time. Haha. Practiced some German while doing the laundry, some words are mixing me up a lot, like wen, wenn, den, denn. We also checked out the other laundromat close to Pan R's house, but they have laundry cards.

Yesterday, M came over and we has our German movie night. We got through 1 movie haha because we started talking and didn't get to the second. We watched Keinohrhasen and it was nice and funny. The other movie was called Barfuss. We ate so much pop corn as well. Tomorrow a busy day!

There is so much happening in my head right now and I have to stop getting excited for things too quickly. Sometimes there are no opportunities and you sit quietly at home and then suddenly things pop up out of nowhere. But my worst habit is getting excited too early for things and I need to relax. ;) J is having such a good time in Quebec and I am so happy for her that she got to experience it all. It's her first major trip (which she remembers), we go to the States often but this one she paid for by herself and is going with friends/school trip. But she sent me like 6 texts (that is a record) this morning and I was trying so hard to sleep in haha. But it was really nice, to receive these happy, excited texts.

"M I'm at the cutest boulangerie and I just got everyone macarons! Tous les macarons!"
"M I just went into this music and bookstore where this man dressed really nice sold me a classic French book and I spoke to him all in French! No English!"
"M omg French accordion music! Well dressed men carry books and cameras! And croissants, I wanna live here so bad it's perfect!"

Ahaha when she mentioned the books, all I thought was those books must be being held together by a belt strap, as if this was Gaston in Beauty and the Beast. Alright off to eat and get ready! Need to pick up my poster today from the gallery it was at. I never knew they were still giving it out. I would have come in so long ago. :/ And need to fix one logo up. Environmental meeting today! And downtown tomorrow, so not sure if I'll make it to zumba. :/

And two nights ago I was sitting on my couch/chair, which I never do, and I was just trying to get my eyes away from a screen because they hurt. And so I did my manuka routine and then practiced some more German. Basically I just read German lines and pretended I could actually speak the language. Better than not practicing anything right? And then I was sitting right by my cameras and just picked up my Konica and put film in. I haven't put film in a camera for like 8-9 years. And I wasn't sure if I even did it right, because I didn't take much pictures with film. But it's in there so now I have to use it. And I got a manual online I have to read through and it's in English/German. :) Because there seemed to be no shutter speed and I was very confused. So going to read up on everything and begin one of my goals this year.

Flickr Getty Images also contacted me to sell some photos off my Flickr. I started to fill out the application yesterday and then realized mm maybe I should read the contract and such instead of rushing into it all. :P

Had a small talk yesterday with E, awks, jellie and other nonsense. :) She was feeling sick all day yesterday. Also had M over for two movies. We watched The Fighter (ech ok) and then tried for like 1.5 hr or so to get Groundhog Day to work from her computer and our weird internet. It did! We watched Groundhog Day on Groundhog Day. It's an early spring this year. We also updated the movie list. Ok off to get ready!

Evening Update:

It's funny how the morning can be so up and happy and everything can become a bit less exciting in the evening. It wasn't a bad evening it was just a bit surprising, when you don't expect something. The bus was late, thankfully our meeting always starts a few minutes late so I was perfectly on time anyway. ;) We went through the logos and have a few things to work on. And the package. Then walked from UofT to Lansdowne to pick up my poster.

One naughty thing that happened, it started to rain a bit so I put my glasses into my pocket. Now, I know this sounds like a bad idea, and it was I was thinking the same thing. However, I thought that if nothing touched my glasses in my big pocket it would be alright. And it would have been alright had I left that caramel bar. I moved my purse from the back to the front and that's when it squished my glasses and they snapped like a nerd in the middle. When it comes to glasses I am extremely picky. These ones are perfect, the perfect shape I have had them for 5 years now. And was so careful when traveling and everything. I went to Wal-mart after my bus ride to check some frames out, and I found a similar pair! For now however I might just glue them together. I'm too lazy to find my old pair. I was 100% sure I knew where it was, and now am very confused. That is enough sad news, this blog is dedicated to fun things and cool videos. ;)

I began to write a letter to P, almost complete and should send it soon. Well Monday is when the mail runs again. Having a lot of high hopes lately as well. And need to get back into cooking, I took a break for a week but it's time to get back to it. It's hard now since it's getting very busy. I guess it's time to make a list/calendar!

Today was a laid back day. I always feel guilty though and very lazy. I didn't make dinner, at breakfast at 1 PM. Watched Australia and Out of Africa. Both very long movies, the first was good, Out of Africa I got bored the first 10 minutes. :/ A shame, I was looking forward to it and it had good reviews.

I also began to do a small search for traveling abroad. Through a nanny service. A friend of mine is doing it now in Switzerland and I love looking through her photos and hearing her adventures. I found the nanny site through a travel forum and we'll see how it goes from there. It would be a wonderful experience, to work with kids, to learn a new language, etc. I hope something comes out from it.

My bookmarks are starting to add up again. Lot's of pages to read up on! Tomorrow movie day with M. My eyes hurt from starting at 2 screens all day. Yesterday was downtown with C. We went to H&M and then ended up in the library to work on some design work. There was a man who kept swearing into his phone, another guy who kept making calls on his phone, another person who didn't realize their phone was ringing? And then I saw a girl on the ground across the street, lying in the wet pavement?! It was strange because I had looked up and saw two girls walking and I noticed one had a very neon green bag. I looked down and then a few seconds later looked up again and she was there talking with her other friend on the phone by some random girl on the ground? The fire fighter arrived and they began to put tubes/masks and lift her head. Then some other girl came out of nowhere, guessing it was the friend she had just visited or something. The ambulance finally arrived and took her away.

I hope everything turned out alright! What a scary thing to happen she was in her 20s for sure, so young. It was just so random and shocking to see. Before when we were walking up to the library we had seen a fire fighter drive by and the sirens were on and we were saying how slow it was driving? How is it possible to save somebody when they are driving so slow. It's scary to drive downtown at a fast speed and have to watch out for pedestrians/crazy cars/taxis.

Then waited long for the streetcar because it was rush hour. But got to get back home on the express bus thankfully and stopped into the library for my hold. I think tomorrow I might bike/walk to the library. I have been lazy for far too long. The weather was so nice yesterday I didn't want to be stuck inside on the computer. We did walk a bit but still. The weather for Jan/Feb this year is surprisingly warm. I had my thin coat and even unbuttoned and my scarf was making me sweat, my whole sweater was wet. And now this is all too much detail.

I just realized it is Wednesday, I thought it was Tuesday for some reason. I have been applying to places I never thought I would, and I never thought I would again. But it's time to get back to gettting paid bi-weekly and having a routine and saving!

Have started my skin routine with manuka and lavender/chamomile, let's hope for the best. Also have started reading my car manual book. Well it started because I couldn't fall asleep, but need to get into it some more. Ah and need to send a letter, 3 actually! J is off in Quebec now!